Day 4

I've been waking up every morning feeling pretty great.
The day has gone smoothly... lunch is well timed... and dinner seems to be there when it should.

And I've been thinking to myself, "What the heck is with all the warnings that I might feel hungover or super tired? I feel pretty good so far."

Well, my friends, that changed a little today.

Everything was going great until about 4pm.  I started to feel a little drowsy.
Then before I knew it, I was completely exhausted.

My eyelids began to droop as I finished up a few things around the office.
When I walked through my apartment door, I didn't even bother with dinner.
I headed straight to my wonderful, beautiful, comfortable, nice, warm bed.

I set an alarm on my phone and pulled the covers up... and I was out.

Twenty minutes later, I heard the annoying bells of my alarm and felt like I had just awoken from a 100-year sleep (not in the good, rested way... in the where am I??? what year is it??? way)
I snoozed that bad boy and turned over... shunning the annoying phone that had disturbed my slumber.

But 10 more minutes was all I had time for.

I struggled to make a quick dinner - just some eggs.
I wasn't really feeling that hungry.

Then I headed out the door to a Bible study movie night - making sure to grab a bag of trail mix on my way out. Thanks goodness for that trail mix, because movie night is equated to snack night.

Chips, rice krispie treats, sugary beverages... all things I can't have.
The odd things was, I was ok with not having those snacks that had previously been a regular part of my diet.
I munched on my trail mix and was perfectly happy.

I did feel a slight tug toward the rice krispie treats for a second, but then moved on.
When I got in the car to leave, I felt the familiar pull to grab something on the way home... then I thought Nope, I'm not even hungry, put my car into gear, and drove off.

I can't really describe how utterly shocked I was with myself.
To be able to put those nagging cravings in their place and not act on them was truly miraculous.

It may have had something to do with the fact that was I was still so incredibly, very, very tired.

I had to stop at Walmart on my way home, since I had used up my time before movie night taking a nap.

Now, I'm normally a super happy, friendly person... but as I trudged through the store trying to locate the items I had come in for, I didn't even have the energy to smile at people.

I almost wanted to wear a sign that said "I apologize for looking so grumpy... I owe you a smile."

I didn't feel grumpy... but I am 100% sure my face did not have its usual, happy expression.
Somehow, I made it through the aisles, to the checkout, back in my car, then through the door of my apartment.

So now, here I sit, writing a blog post, because gosh darn it I've committed to blogging about this entire experience.

Even with the slight exhaustion, though, I would have to say it was a good day.
For once, I  felt completely confident in resisting the temptation to make poor food choices.

Let's consider Day 4 a step in the right direction.